what the ehll

d i'm gonna off someone

This might be a good place to vent. Much cheaper than therapy.
If I offend, stop reading, your choice. This is for me, not you.
THIS is a train wreck, my life isn't.

What the hell is it with young people nowadays? I remember hearing my Grandmother and Mother say this many years ago and I thought they were stark raving mad. Now I know what they meant when they said it. The snarl is what gets me, I could SO wipe it off their smug little faces.

I find myself looking at the next generation (my kids!) and it scares the hell right out of me. I grew up with Nixon taking responsibility and resigining for his screw up. They have grown up with Bill Clinton blaming Monica and staying in office, fighting over the word IT. ugh

When does the idea in their heads go away that "you have more money than me, so you should give me some"? Excuse me?? Have you paid any dues? Have you sacrificed anything? Have you worked sh** jobs to the point that you are so sick and tired you finally DO something to improve your situation? Was everyone born a Libra and thinks it isn't fair that they don't have as much as someone else, so they should share? whatever
F that. Scrub a toilet, work in a nasty packing house, pick up garbage, then cry to me about how bad life is. When you are ready to do something for YOURSELF, drop the blame about how "bad" you had it, or how unfair your life is. You didn't have it so freaking bad. Did you get beat? Did your Mom come home drunk and start throwing shit around the house and then leave, vowing never to return, leaving you with 2 younger brothers to take care of? no

I know you have your horror story too, hours you had to baby sit because your Mom wanted to go out with friends, walking to school in the dead of winter because she didn't want to get out of bed and take you, her not being home in the evenings because she had to work, her boyfriends you hated, camping trips that sucked, depression, stupid AA meetings that she dragged you along to, cats that stunk up the house, messes that took forever to clean up, a Dad that wasn't around, a little sister that needed watching, laundry that didn't get done.

Your parents did the best they could. So did mine, big deal.

So here's my advice.
You want something better, then DO something better, change starts with I, not U.
Don't blame others for your misfortune.
Don't mistake possessions for success, you DO have what you need, and a lot of what you WANT.
Stop whining, if you don't want to spend a lot of money on gasoline, buy a more fuel efficient vehicle. duh
Don't wait for someone else to rescue you, that is your job.
Don't drink to excess, you make a fool of yourself and could hurt someone, not to mention all the legal ramifications if you get picked up.
You are not entitled to have everything at 20 years old that other people have had to work 10 years or better to get!
You want a big pat on the back for helping out? Give it to yourself, no one wants to aknowledge you for doing what you are supposed to be doing anyway! You aren't 6 anymore for crissake, the chart with the big gold stars on it got thrown away 10 years ago!
If we got what we deserve it would be a very different world, be grateful for the roof over your head, the food in your stomach and the opportunity to make your life better.
If it's really that bad, see a therapist so you can get on with living.

Now here's my advice to myself!
Stop enabling, no kid ever died from having to work hard and pay their own way.
Guilt is over rated, let it go.
You did the best you could with what you had, get over it and love your kids without crippling them or yourself.
Do good things for you, not just them.

and most of all STOP THAT FUCKING WHINING.

posted by detoxedmom @ 7:12 AM